Six Feet from the edge....

2005-07-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

Just came back.. hme.. yeah.. watch... war of the worlds..

wif faris n hyder..(ex-sch mate la...)

nah... it's crap....

dun watch...

wait...

go watch it... it's ur damn life...dun need to hear my opinion

wait........ wat am i typing here?.....

eheh...crapping2....

had a match todae(in the morning).. playing for naz's(sp) team(torpedo FC or sumtink)....

didn't played well.....

wah... fcuk.... got subst ....mid way... thru the 1st half..it's been so long since i was last kena drop..midway

..but lucky 2nd half they put me back...

play striker... some more...

hmm.. given the No.9 shirt

the no.9 was too "heavy"

for me.. i guess...............................

miss 4 one on one....chances

n the worse part... of it

.. one of them shouted " u're fcuking lousy..."... at me... n laugh........

that hurt my pride...n ego....but we... wait i wouldn't want to

use the word "we"... it should be "they"'....heh....yeah they won..3-1

n still top of the table in espzen sunday league..

i dun tink... the team manager will be calling me.. next week....again..

haiz....

i think the problem is hmm.. the hot sun( kick off @ 12pm...)....

the pitch... the team .. the shirt... the socks.. my boots.. the grass...

yeah... im blaming every thing except myself....

i guess i m no good la............

ok. la... i can accept.. it...heh...

hmm tired..guess it wasn't my day..or

rather it wasn't my week...

may next week be a great week....

give me a break will ya?....

as usual long dae in sch tmw...

i need some rest.. so i'll write again somedae..............

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did i hear u rite??

coz i tot u said........

2005-07-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... well it 's july already.. ar?.... wow... so fast .....i m getting older... n ya.. my life is in a mess....

term test coming up... n my confidence is at all time low....haven't start studying ....ar...

n engineering maths.. is getting harder...nvr tot.. poly life would turn out to be tis.... miserable

at the start of my second year... i've made some kind of promise to myself...

i've wanted to concerntrate on my studies...

yeah i've always said.. tat...

but i guess it's easier said than done..

.u noe actions..

speaks louder than words.shit...

feeling lost rite now..someone out there tell me wat am i doing?...

i may seem relax n carefree on the outside.. but god noes wat's goin on in my head....

..it's not been the best of week days..i've had.]

...i guess .. it will get better....hopefully..

.had a misunderstanding wif an old n good fren of.. mine...erm... if she's reading tis...

. sorie for all the nasty things i've said.

.. ya.. hopefully things get better.

..well... didn't do.. much... todae...except.. downloading songs.

..hmm.. download some nickelback n audioslave.. song.. heh .

.those i've nvr heard b4 ar... n ya n other song.. also la...may b having a match tmw .... yeah.....i need tis..... it'll give me some sort of happiness...n joy.

..well naz( my senior in sch ar...)...

. call me to play for his espzen sunday league team..

.will b playing at kantong field... ermm... it's far n i dun noe

where...ar

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.They said .....they'll cry me..

. a thousand rivers...

..but now they r swimming for the shore.....

2005-06-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

hmm.. just wake..up... n again i had nothing to do....

heeh..well actually...got la...

hmm maths test coming up n lab report to b done...

but ar... tmw ar...

well my weekend got off to a good start ...yeah...coz...

finally ...after one month..without..playing a proper match

i had a match...all full 90 minutes..

just can't live without it...

aniway .. had a nice.. game..

scored 2.5 goals..yup... 2.5 ..coz i had to share my 2nd goals.. wif felix...

n yeah we won 10-2....or was it 9-2..too many goals

nah... like water man...heh..(ok.. i sound "action")

well was supposed to watch movie todae..but postponed ar...

so my saturdae afternoon was basically all about sleeping..heh

well i again ...i tink.. i m not goin to do anything now..so again.. just gonna b on bed ....

wif music on..heh...

boring saturdae......

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Human pride sings a vengeful song

Inspired by the times you've been walked on

My stage is shared by many millions

Who lift their hands up high because they feel this

So I'll just ask a question

What if?

What if your words could be judged like a crime?

2005-06-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

Just came back hme....

n now i tink i have nothing to do...so...i switch on my comp...n sit here clicking here n there....

.....yeah not the best of day.... reali..

N I MEAN it....

OK.. tis is how it goes...

during lunch break... syafiq..firdaus... n i ..

went out for our usual.. smoking break..at the nearest bus stop..heh..

heh...but yeah... tis time..it wasn't just about smoking..........

ermm ... after each of us finish smoking.. shafiq as usual.. threw his stick... down straight to the ground .. firdaus too... n i just twist it agst the bench....

well.....

didn't YOU MANAGE TO SPOT wat were doin here... tat is agst the law... ...

hmm n yesh it was not bcoz.. i m not 18 yet....

but fcuk..we were littering...

damn....

yesh L-I-T-T-E-R-I-N-G...

a ministry of environment approach to us as were about to re-enter the sch..

well he took down our particulars...

n told us our names will be submited to our sch.n parents....

die..die..die..

if kena fine...die...die....

no money ...

die...died..mati..mampos..

well.. yeah but the officer was stupid enuf...to assume tat we were all 18...

hah...kiss my ass officer.....

u miss out on my birth date...well it could have been

worse... wif two.. charges....

i guess i have to pray hard nothing will happen

...or at the very least just give a warning letter..plss...

OH .. god.. wat have i done...

ar crap ar...

hmm didn't have the mood.. to study after tat ...so skip class..at 2...

went to city hall wif keith n fiq... walk2...n ya surveying the great spore sale..heh...

ok.. had some fun...heh...

ya tat's it..write again later...la...

N YA..a gentle reminder to all.. my frens...DON'T LITTER...IT KILLS...HAH...

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IT ALL KEEPS TURNING UP....I THINK.. I'M.... CRACKING UP....

HMMM...

HMMM........

ANYONE??

2005-06-23T01:54:00.000+08:00

hmm.. well i m tired.. drained out....just came back from werk

haiz.. tmw got test on multimedia application(fireworks) n it's 25 %

worried a bit ar... i dun noe much about tis module.. though it seem easy..heh..

i just wanna pass...yeah... guess tat's wat i have been doin all my life..

hmm 17++.. years.. of scrapping through...

yeah im ok wif it... i noe.. who i am... my weakness..

...eheha.. sound gay man.. no macho...

but .. yeah i've some how accepted( a bit la..) the fact...tat there'll always be someone better....

tat's the real world... both shit n nice things...heh..

ok crap...i tink i complain too much in my blog...well ...

u dun like it.. just click on the "X" icon on the top right corner of ur screen ...heh

long dae tmw.. ..

wait i miss out ..sumtink about my beloved man utd..

yeah the signing of park tay wong..eh wait.. wrong..la..

hah..park ji sung..

korean?.. yeah...wow the 1st asian.. to play for man utd(if he does get a game...)

damn i m jealous..but then again he's better than me....so?... ya..

ok ..gd luck mr park...cause i have a very bad feeling about u joining man utd..or rather.. i

have a bad feeling for man utd for signing..u...

so .... so long n good nite...hmm. hmm. hmm.

...nice...

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Never made it as a wise man

I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealin'

Tired of livin' like a blind man

I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling

Wat can i say..

Someone?

2005-06-22T01:38:00.000+08:00

hmm.. just wake up... from my great sleep... well i came back @ 6... n slept all the way till 12.30..

i had a nice dream though...nah.. it's just.. a dream..no need for me.. to tell u.. heh.

it just between me.. n my bed...plus my pillow...

ermm ... dreams... y do we have dreams wen we sleep...

hmm... ya.. dreams.. how i wish tis life turns out to a great dream...then. i would wake up.. being a baby again..

n ya....i noe... tis is crap...wtf...

hmmmmmm... wat did i do todae... wen to sch.. go back sleep..

wait ya..nice wheather... the my practical was nice todae..

pressure...thing was a piece of cake.

well tmw...

tmw is wednesday.... n it'll end early...cos g.e.m.s class's cancel babe..... from 8-12..

i'll b having maths n intrumentations..

n since gaz..n keith... are not goin ..i dun wanna go ..also ar...

hmm i guess im done..back to my bed..music plss...

done.

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i believe...im the same..i get....

2005-06-20T18:09:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. just came back from sch... yeah tiring...from talking cock wif shafiq..gaz..keith..faz....

plus all the prank call we made.. in class...... was definitely not in the mood.. to study.. todae.. guess..

now i have nothing to do.. so i'll just have to listen to the my jukebox(my comp la..)....n go into a great sleep...

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...if nothing is forever.. then i'll b ur nothing...

2005-06-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i did myself a favour todae... 1stly.. i finally did some tutorial.. in the morning.. heh.. my maths.. tutorial.. n some multimedia(fireworks) exercise.. n now.. as i've just finish cleaning up my room... heh.. ... ya got sick of hearing me mummy's n sis..plus my bro...well basically my whole family.. . saying tat my room is like a "kandang babi."... hhaha... n ya for those of u who doesn't understand wat it means.. u dun have to..heh

well i m gonna sit at home for the whole of todae .. yeah kind of miss my room..eheh..

it has been a nice week.. so far...i extremely delighted wif sumtink...heh..only time will tell...but i hope for the best..n ya.. no matter wat happen..i'll take it like a men.....eheh.

awww...so touching ar..........

okok moving on now...hmm wait ar..ok i tink im done..

write again soon.....

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If a great wave should fall

It would fall upon us all

Well I hope there's someone out there

Who can bring me back to you

2005-06-13T07:22:00.000+08:00

hmm...feeling sleepy...now... well i have nvr blogged early in the morning.. i guess tis is the 1st time.. yesh there's always a 1st time for everything...

todae i woke up pretty early.. 5.15 am and 40 sec i tink. heh.

hmm.. i tot my class starts @ 8 ..but nope.. i as i was packing my beg..

i saw my time table.. n it is.. suppose to b 9.. tat's y i m blogging now...n ya while i m listening..my favourite indies band..heh oasis.. oh ya. ar. hope u ppl like the song tat i've uploaded here..one of my favourite..

dae dreaming song.. hah....

i'll try not to skip class ... todae... but it's sure as hell gonna b a long day.........

ends about 5...hmm ...hmm.. i'll tink about it............

cause my brain is still in a holidae mode.. can't concerntrate...

okie gtg.

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...Take me to a place where u go...where nobody knows. if it's night or day...

2005-06-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

Well ...todae.. wen for sp.. soccer selection...n didn't went for a single class...in the morning.. n afternoon...

hmm was surprise by

the large number of ppl..

yesh as expected nvr get.. la..

ya..i knew it.. tat's y i didn't go last year..

but just try my luck ar...

no luck.. n not good enuf ...

i realise my fitness level.. is getting worse

play only for 5 min.. n heart was.. pumping.. furiously...

heh

ya.. go to quit..hmm smoking...

...well tmw there's a little gathering.. hmm.. but i m not goin...cause..well the boys.. all not goin..

only girls.. hmm...hmm..hmm.. haiz...

ya.. i m tinking about switching sports..

from soccer to rugby....heh.

ya.. since there's no gathering for me....well i m tinking..of goin.. to the rugby selection..tmw...

ya..im desperate...for.. a cca.. well cause life sucks at sp.. rite now.. i mean.. it's so boring without any activity..

though i had one last year..

tat was the SMA.. soccer team.. but all cocked up ar..

our mini.. department league tournament....didn't work out...play one game then finish..shit..

hmm ...can't sleep well these.. days...

mayb im missing sumone..hmm..

ok..gtg.....finish my multimedia homework...

bye..

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i hope..im not just another line in ur book.............

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2005-06-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. one week of sch... n now..the ...weekend..eheh...time fly reali fast....

has been a reasonable.. week...so far...well i was feeling.. great.. at one stage..

n felt like shit at another.... im pleased wif sumtink tis week...

n not i m not goin to reveal..it....

only time will tell...hmm...move on..cannot emo2..like gay...

eheh..

well todae...nvr go fridae prayer...again..ops...heh... i "lepak" in the sch library..wif.. eddy...

from 11.30am..all the way to 4pm..

heh..manage to read some soccer stuff n some of the bristih newspaper.n yesh..hah.. dating skill....(now i noe..tat the library is veri resourceful...)...well sat at a sofa ..at the basement... i read all those thing while eddy... look at some motorbikes stuff...

then both of us went to werk...

...

well tmw gonna have match..agst my old peeps...wait..i hate the word "peeps"..ok a match agst my old

sch mates... the pioneer.. batch...

mayon..vs.. opss..

it's gonna b.. ex-opss..(orchid park)... agst ex-Aiss..(ahmad ibrahim..)

it will feel weird.. playin.. for aiss..heh..im from opss ...of course..

eheh..looking forward..to it..

n ya..i nvr get along wif most of the pioneer batch aniway...( last time during training..always..kena controlled by them..no more..babe...)

gonna.. try to show how far i've come...eheh..

ok enuf ..craps...crabs...crape..eheh..

gtg babe....

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So I'll start a revolution from my bed

'Cuz you said the brains I had

went to my head

Step outside, summertime's in bloom

Stand up beside the fireplace

Take that look from off your face

You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so...

her soul slides away

(indies..song..eheh..by oasis..)

hmmm..

2005-06-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. sch has been oo'ok so..far...nice...relax...well basically tis semenster..i will b having lots..of computer thingy ar... there's multimedia application... autocad...n gems module securing ur pc.... n ya ... got engineering maths... hmm.. tat's one hell of a module...it's tough.. n ya..i could sensed it was goin to b tough once i did the 1st tutorial..ohh shit...

well.. i 've started to be in "love" with indies type.of.song..eheh..

nice..used to say tat it was for gays..last time ar...

erm.. i dunnoe.. wat to write so. byye...

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So you sailed away...to a grey sky morning.....

2005-05-29T20:19:00.000+08:00

Tmw sch gonna start..i miss sch ..eheh... i miss the nasi ayam...i miss.. erm.. the food court...hah... i miss the library...heh...these are the places where..the chickies..are...hah...my frens n i ..."wash our eyes"...in these places...we see only ar...nothing else...heh
BUt...erm....Well my time table is kind of full...shit..
N tmw start at 9.. end at 5...but i guess..it'll end early la tmw... cause..1st dae...talk cock only...
tat's good... reali..good...
wah..so fast 2nd year liao... time flys....now no more freshies..heh..
n ya.. ar.. wanna see how the freshies look like..heh..
goin to do some scouting tmw....haha..okok..gtg...
.bye.
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Six feet from the edge...

hmmm..

2005-05-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

HMM....Well ...wait...wat to write?...hah.. no idea...babe...

ohh ya... so tis week was full of suprises...heh...erm .. actualy one la...

tat's LIVERPOOL winning.. champions league...yesh...hah..im surprised as ever...lucky nvr bet again heh...if not abes...bankrupt.... ok im pissed b'cause of all the hype...surrounding thier win..hmm...im impressed.. but...as a man utd fan... can't help it but feel jealous..ahha..n ya...i can't stand... to hear my bro n fren..n even my 5 year old nephew was mocking at me...well ...i tink he didn't understand wat's going on...but he sang..."U'll never walk alone"....only the chorus part....tis boy has reali..grown up..well has so far his..like my small bro..heh.(my mum baby sit him ...since he was born..heh) cute boy...

i watch.. "'the jacket" tis week...nice movie...but weird...

watch it...wif who else.. but ...erm hyder lor......n ya.. did some shopping...hah..

find clothes...to wear when sch reopen...heh...

i was in train todae... n i saw.. tis group.. of boys.. "skimmer".. they brought..their skim board along...laughing n talking loudly..... ..ahah... WAT THE FUCK....haah

ermm... since wen did s'pore... had big waves or did they "skim" inside s'pore river?..or worse..lonkang ar???..hah..get a life...hah

n sad to say.. they are malay boys...haiz...sometimes.. i m ashamed to b malay.....

well coz.... u can find the answer... wen u look around shopping centre.. n yesh..u can find tat majority...of teens..hanging around aimlessly...are the malays...look at the void deck u'll see the same thing too....n not missing out on the parks...esp yishun n sembawang parks.....heh...shit...damn...not tat i m perfect but just erm..hah..enuf la...ok i noe i also last time... sit at void decks but now no more la...ehh...mature liao..ok tmw morning got match wif mayon...heh.. gtg sleep...nitezz

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.........I thought i've found a road to some where...some where..in the streets..........

2005-05-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

Well ... wat can i say... tis weekend kinda sucked... well my beloved Man utd lose... wtf......

well they were unlucky...tis season.... man u ran riot.. yesterdae... yet... failed to take thier chances....n then paid a massive price...shit.. well tat really sum up... thier luck they had tis season... they dominate matches .. then fail to score...shit...unlucky...unlucky...unlucky...

well they are just like me...hah... unlucky... erm...well "lady luck" rarely smile at me..all my life(so FAR)...hmm.. recently... in a soccer tournament(with keith n gang...heh)...i lost in a penalty shoot out in the semi's...

it's goes the same for betting..(erm it's frenly a bet)..recently i lost a bet..wif hyder.. n i had to belanja him.. btw.. i lost a few bet wif him but ...heh .. nvr pay ar...hah

n yesh.. i nvr had any much luck either.. wif ..erm.. girls ar....

hmm.. wen i m attracted to a girl...she is... either erm.. have a bf or... like sumone else or they just slipped thru.....hah..shit

n i nvr had long r'ship.. ahah..one month ...then it's R.I.P...

n then ...within a few months or days..haha.... i found out they had sumone else....haha... stooopid jusri....

nah.. i dun blame them...hah..n oh ya.. ar.. i also have no luck in my studies... haiz.. how come ppl who study last min like me... can get high marks....n i can't....im mean... why?....n one more thing my computer just keeps getting virus...heh .. god..give me break pls... eheh..

well i guest there are millions out there tat share the sAME "thing" as me....

well may there be many..many great things in life ahead...

...for now..it's i go ... with the flow...of life...ehehe..

ok done...bye...

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So you sailed away, into a grey sky morning.....n now im staying....

2005-05-21T03:20:00.000+08:00

I m ok already... no more sick-sick...sakit...eheeh... but my throat still feels a little pain ...heh...

hmm looking forward to the weekend... heh... got FA CUP FINAL....yesh ..i m still a true...red...a red devil(man u fan la...) tat is....even though i cursed at them earlier..eheh..we kiss n make up already..haha..crap..

well..while i was down wif .. fever.. i stayed at home..at manages to complete 5 movies

....hahah...shhhh.. dun tell police i download ar...well... my "ARES" downloading software...works damn goooooooood..it was "on form" on thurs..haha...so fast man... well i finally manages.. finish downloading AMERICAN PIE ...1..2... n 3..heh.. ya..tis movie contain a bit of sex stuff la...u noe tat thing...ehah.. n yesh...

i m not a pervert..nor am i just downloading the movie just for the sexual content...but i bcoz..of the funny shit ...tis movie contain... well.. it's about a group of teen boys (ang moh)... in the 1st part..they were madly looking to "score"..wif practically anione which also include wif thier friends mum..hah..wait..i noe it sound sick sleeping wif sumone mum..but u should see these movies.....haha..i was laughing my ass off..eheh..

well...i had to watch these movies.. in my room ...if my ear phone stuck on my ..erm.. ear la.. bcoz my mum would not allow me to watch tis type of movie..eheh..or she'll say..."ape kau tengok nie....duduk lagi depn computer..tgk barang-barang tak senonoh nie.."...ahah...well...if u dun understand..wat i've just said... nvr mind la...

......the other two movies..are.. Troy...n blade trinity....or blade 3..u noe the vampire killing thing...

heh....well now i m downloading constantine..heh....n yesh...i noe... if i get "caught" downloading movies ...im a dead meat...yup.. kena fine... n get screw...left right center...up side down...hah....

god plss bless me...hah...amin..hah

well gtg....babe... wait one last thing...GLORY...GLORY MAN UTD...I M WIF U.....HAHA....LOVE U.. OOKOK

CRAP....BYE-BYE-BYE...EHEHEH

done

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..i m back ..wen i heard thunder..but i m down to one last prayer.....hmm...

sick

2005-05-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

I m sick....ohh..shit...hate tis feeling...nose blocked....my..eyes.. feels reali hot..it has been a while since the last time i got sick....aiyah ......eh..i gtg.....

.........sick....sakit.....sick......

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I M NOT OKAY...............

hmmm..

2005-05-14T02:36:00.000+08:00

wah... just came back... hmmm...n no... i m not feeling tired or sleepy..

i wen out todae...well for a little gathering wif my ex-opss classmates(su.nad..narita..mardiana..hyder...sepul..n erm..nad's fren..)... heh...i meet up wif saiful early todae...heh.. at 1st we wanted to go

for friday prayers..then change mind at the last min.. n went to orchard... play pool..

meet up wif the rest at starbuck at raffles ar.. at around 4.. at 1st it seems reali "odd".. to e sitting together wif my former classmates...i simply dun noe wat to talk about.. heh..then things .. got better...n we started to chit-chat...like last time ar....then we got no plan... so nadirah.. took us to her sch at bugis...for some graduation thingy...

haha.. i feel reali weird wen i got there... i mean wat the hell am i doin in an art sch....

haha... I HATE ART!!.. i even dropped it during my o's....i was also paiseh to go in... i was impressed though ...by some of the display...even though..most didn't have any meaning towards.. me..... .haha.. i dun how to appreciate arts.... in my view.. art is simply to take a pencil.. draw..n then add in some color.... hand in.. to teacher..n wen it's returned back to me...i would get a big red "F"..WHICH STANDS FOR FAIL...

..HMm. then after.. tat.. we broke up... the girls dunnoe go where...n us guys(hyder..sepul...n i).walk to suntec to catch a movie..hmm.. along the way..these two guys was argue-ing a lot..haha..just like the old daes...heh..then talk....erm... guys talk ar..haha shhh.. can't tell...n yesh finally... sumthing..."scary"... HOUSE OF WAX ar..eh...ok ar.. it was very bloody though...heh...

then wen back to yishun... lepak wif sepul... sit under void deck... n talk cock until 1.45am...heh..

ok tink too long already n i m werking tmw....... ok i noe.. la.. nitezzz.....

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............YOU CAME WITHOUT A REASON....N GO WITHOUT ONE.......

hmmm..

2005-05-13T01:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae.. no good... i mean not a good dae... erm 1st .my result slip came in...hah... not tat i fail.. but.. i got almost C...OR C +... TAt's 60-70 marks... heh... i dunnoe y i feel down.. wen it came..i expected n already noe my marks(thru skool website)..to b like tis...but.. erm i dunooe... ahah...show to my mum... n she just look n me.. n say...hmm..."itu la... main computer tu lagi... ni ade mateair ar.. nie..."...or in english...erm.. she said the reason i got those marks was bcoz i sit all day in front of computer... haiz.. mayb ar... eh... i dunnoe..hah...BUT AT LEAST I MADE IT TO YEAR TWO!!...HAHA....n yes the next shock WAS my hp bill...wah..$60...or to be exact $60.59..wtf... man.. hah.. i mean i nvr sms ppl tat much...i got no girlfren to talk to...i dunnoe flirt wif anyone using hp(in fact i dun flirt at all.. haha)

..haha.....wtf...

haiz....oh ya.. i remember.. i downloaded ring tones(...my phone no "stylish" tones wat!!".)...n yesh it was comfirm wen i look at the second page....of the bill... haiz... jusri-jusri.... hmm ok.. im looking forward to tmw..

got some small gathering of my former classmate ar.....hopefully it would be nice n plss dun rain......eheh

gtg...

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.........LAMUNAN TERHENTI...TERHENTI..TERHENTI..................................

wow

2005-05-12T04:58:00.000+08:00

fuyoo....arsenal won 7-0....impressive..n they played sexily..ahah. like champions.. brilliant passing......good luck man utd...god bless u.... come tis 25th may........ eheh...time to sleepzzzzzz....

hmmm....

2005-05-12T02:15:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep early these days.. hah...well wen i can't sleep....my brain will be fill wif all kind of things....hah.

well some of these things.. are....1st..........hmmm... wat will i be.....10 years from now??....

im taking marine engineering.. at sp...so the obvious choice would b goin b a marine engineer....

well.. it's a tough choice... i can earn tons of money.. if i go sailing...hmm n mayb see the world..

but i m afraid of the tough life...haha...i mean the job....is dangerous.. wat if i die...wat if i had a bad accident.

wtf...

the next thing in my mind...is... hmm.. erm... how long will i live....heh.. will stand any chance of goin to heaven.. n be spared of hell...haha....hopefully...

...erm finally.. who's goin to marry me???..heh.. yesh...n ya how will my mother in law look??...haha...

who can stand my bullshit... even my mum.. sumtime..cant.. oh ya happy mother's day mum...

haha.. late a bit...

well enuf... or my.. brain will go crazy... oh ya if u can answer the qns... tell me ar...eheh....

ok i noe... tis doesn't sound like me...ehehh.. but the heck..u are not me..so.....nah.. nothing...ok..i gtg watch so

Arsenal vs everton...byeeee

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I THINK GOD CAN EXPLAIN....EHEH...

half

2005-05-11T19:01:00.001+08:00

1st of all i would like to say..... FCUK U... MAN UTD!!!... shit....wtf!!!.... u guys played like gays.....yes tat include u... Roy keane.....i felt frustrated early tis morning...man i didn't sleep the whole night just to watch man u ...got humble by chelsea 3-1.......shit....

n yes the biggest clown MUST BE ROY carroll.. the way he just stood rooted to the ground wen the 1st goal wen in just makes me sick....

furyooooo....ok... relax...ar...

hah... over ar... okok... hmm didn't do much todae..sleep at 6.30am..

n was force to get up... at around 2pm..wen i got an sms...hmm funny though... the soft

"beep-beep" noise could wake me up...hah....sharp ears i must have..eheh...then i switch on the com..until now...heh...ok done....later write again....oh ya one last time FCUK U MAN UTD.....

HHAAH... WAIT.. y am i laughing..wen i m angry..arghh nvr mind...

gtg.....

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How can u break ... sumthing that has been broken....hmmmm

2005-05-11T19:01:00.000+08:00

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2005-05-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

HMM... it's been almost a month aha

yeah i noe.. my blog under construction.... haha

actually i dun noe how to construct... in the end... it's DONE!!... WELL.. almost...haha... wait ar

.....almost done....SOON

hmm..

2005-04-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. i got some shit todae(sundae)... ermm... just a little fight.. ar.. hmmm...n no ... i m not proud of it...

it all happen in a soccer match..wif mayon.. yeah.. i noe.. it's stupid just bcoz of soccer.. but.. my ego..n stupidity.. got

the better of.. me... felt great though wen..i...ar .. no need to talk ar... luckily khatik..n felix manages to get me out of the brawl.. haha...if not abes..

i laugh wen thafiq(keith) told me .. that guy voice sound as though he's goin to cry..ahaha

wat the...hell.. it's done n over... n yesh... we won again.. 7-6.. i scored 1 only though...

ok la.. enuf..ok i noe mayb i was a little.. over.. todae..yesh.. i noe..

but it's just part of growing up..heh..okok enuf..

hmm... now i m tired..ok tat's it man... i gtg ..n ya.. sorie guys..haah..i lose my cool a little

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I DUN NOE WAT'S WRONG.........

hlhl

2005-04-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Just came...back...home...just now went out wif my old mates(orchid park sec).. azhar n hyder..

heh.. i wonder y.. i keep goin out wif..boys??..haha

n do couple's stuff.. u noe like shoppin.. movies... eat together...haha...jokin only ar

haiz...wat to do..ar..

hmm.. we walk all around town to find hyder's "business" pant.. well..in the end he didn't bought anything

hhaha.. as usual... he's the most "leceh" guy..haha

hmm then went for a movie at lido... erm.. watch "CREEP"

nah... don't b fool by the title.. only the starting part scary..but then it was a total failure..especially the ending... crap... lots of blood n colourful langauge(NC16) though.. haha

hmm.. it's short only la...1.5 hours... heh.. waste of time n money...

i guess it's my fault ...i didn't read the review on the movie 1st..heh.. silly jusri

i've learn a lesson though.. NEVER watch "ghost" story again .. all major screw up la...

The village.. The eye part 1 n 2.... n now.. cREEP.. HAIZ...

...

hmm then went to play pool.. at lucky plaza...

hmm.. the place was full of "abg-abg" motor n mat n minah..haiz..ar..

but wat the heck.. play only la..

i win some n lose some.. heh.

Now @ home... again nothing to do.. watch tv... on computer...hmm....

well i guess must sleep early ar..tonite.. cause.. tmw got match...wif mayon..at NTU..

by the way NTU stands for? wat ar?...haha...okok

enuf ar...gtg babe...nitezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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THERE'S a beginning..there's an end..is tis the END??.................

hfg

2005-04-22T03:14:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep.. nothing to do...hmm..

...

came across a nice song. ... tis is how it goes....

....

I tear my heart open,

I sow myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

...

Drunk and I'm feeling downand

I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

and I can't help to fix myself

Your making me insane...

All I can say is

I tried to help you once

A kiss will only viseI saw you going down

But you never realized

That your drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last dance

I'm drunk and I'm feeling downand

I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever came around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause your drowning in the water

and I tried to grab your handand

I left my heart openbut you didn't understand

but you didn't understand

You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

...........

the end.........

nice ehh??..eheh.. emo stuff...ehehe...i lovng tis song......

gtg

hmm

2005-04-20T12:02:00.000+08:00

Had a reasonably great time ar...2dae.. heh.. in morning.. went for my safety in shipard course thing wif my classmate..

(i'm in marine engineering eh)

hmm.. well the course was like...ermm.. course la..

eheh.. started at 8am end around 4.30..hmmm

not as boring as i expect it to b la...

there was total havoc early in morning..haha...

u see... most of my classmate were already on the bus... BUT not all..

then the bus driver... shut the door when the clock strike 8 am without comfirming wif us..haha

as result some ppl were left behind..haha.. they tried to chase the bus but too bad..

ahah...crap..i just wave gd bye..haha

I went for a movie after the course.. along wif gaz(farhan).. n faz(fazley).. @ lido

went to watch GUESS WHO...

hah..i was laughing my ass off..

heh... funny man...

should catch it.... but one incident pissed me off..haha

as we was enjoyin the movie ...there's tis couple behind us...

hmm.. the guy was so 'gatal"..heh.. could hear them smooching behind..steaming ehhee

n the girl..well she was.. all along... sayin out loud..."ohhh so cute!!"...or "CUTE YE...."..."cute la!!"

refering to Ashton kutcher(lead actor) .. of course..

WTF...

i felt like askin tis "minah" to shut up... n ya her laughter seems to be "bedek" or ..bluff la..

haah..i bet she didn't understand some of the joke..haah the way she sound....was simply sounded like a minah.. hha

hmm ok..mayb i m jealous ..haha....i should be..haha..all after.... i m watchin it wif two guys???...haha..nah crap..haha..

ok ..i feeling sleepy but not goin to sleep la.. i stayin up to watch arsenal vs chelsea..heh

okok gtg...

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Six FEET from the edge.......

gjdji

2005-04-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

hmm..well 1st week of holidae...nah.. boring..i rather b in sch..

sit around the house..play around wif my nephew..feed my stupid cat...

n watchin tv..

........

hmm... my cat needs some basic manners lesson..shit..it tear apart my

NEWPAPER... yeah i noe it's onli 70 cents..

but still i haven't even finish readin it.. damn i pissed off...

ahah.... but i still love my cat(my family call it "sayang" as in darling la..)

i got two cats though.. another one is my mum's we call it

by a typical cat name which is.."boy-boy"...

hmm... enuf of the cats... erm i don't wat to write already..

looking forward to tmw(wed).. goin to have a safety training.. wif

myclassmate...

hmm ok la..tmw must wake up early.. must b in sch by 8am..

gtg to sleep...

hmm..then i can't sleep ..heh..okoko...

gtg...

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IT's not the life it seems...........

BOre...

2005-04-18T00:34:00.000+08:00

I m bored....hmm.. can't sleep... nothing to do......click here click there....only...heh

....hmmmmmmmmm....

THE END...HEH...

hmm

2005-04-17T15:11:00.000+08:00

Well.. just came back ... feeling tired... had a match just now......wif mayon haha.. won again...

5-3....

manage to score 2 goals..heh.. which is a bonus...

was a tough match.. we were playin wif 10 men ... agst 11..

i played left mid.. again...

heh.. our opponent was tough... it was end to end stuff..heh..

like EPL... they had players.. playing for clubs.. and there a couple playin for Sp sch team..

ar ...but wat the hack.. we won.. with again a great performance...

nice passing.. stable defence..

then .. after that go eat ice kacang @ chong pang..coffee shop..heh

nice n cooling...but i sufferin rite now...heh...

i m having chest pain.. heh.. too much...nicotine.. i guess..

time to cut down.. men..it's killing me..heh...

well i need some rest..and i m goin out.... write again later ..la...

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The scars remind us....of the past is real...

juz another dae....

2005-04-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

1st dae of holidae....

didn't go to plan... haha.. stupid helmie(a.k.a heal miez)...

organise match but nvr happen...haiz.. cannot trust him man..

stoopid... u wanna noe the reason??...

haah.. opponent got stuck @ traffic jam!!

well.. helmi told me we are goin to face malaysian team...wah

i got so upbeat...then they got "stuck"!!.... waited from 8-10... haiz...no one came...

then go play street soccer... wif takqif(keith)..hairul.. wan.. miezz...

hmmm ok la...

lucky i m not emo already...if not... abess!!.. mie ..comfirm get whack..haha..

nah.. in a few hours time got match.. again?..haah...heh

wif mayon.. n yesh.. miez.. will play again haizz.. late again later..aha..

okok...

enuf ar...heh.. hmm.. so bored at home rite now!!.. dunnoe wat to do... sit in front of computer..

click here ... click there ...(no porn ar!!.. ahhaz...)..

boring ar... hmm...ok la...

gtg...

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I M not okay.......

??

2005-04-16T00:14:00.000+08:00

1st n foremost... heh... EXAM DAH ABES!!... OVER BABE....no more exam!!....HAHA....

Feeling high..like take drugs...whaha...wah last paper was also easy..hah...ehh wait ar..

cannot action ar... wait i fail..haha...enuf of the exam shit... ehehe...

hmm nice day.. good mood..no emo-emo... haha im feel high

i cannot wait for the week end...aha...

got mayon match... tmw got match.. hmm got man u VS newcaslte.. heh.. wah so full man!!..

yeah...i m loving !!..haha...loving2 it

LOVE IT.. HAHA.. free for the next 1 .5 MONTHS!!.. WAH.. shoik man!!...

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juz another dae....

2005-04-15T01:40:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. well...todae(thursdae..eheh)..was juz another..dae... hmm..but...i dunnoe y....i m feeling a little...weird... haha.. got up in morning...was...gearing..for for my last paper...on fridae which was marine engineering knowledge... well tis paper is like history.. paper..so much to memorise n i basically knew nothing bout tis subject tis morning..

haiz..

well enuf of the exam.. hmm like i've said ..i feeling kinda of weird and lonely.. happy at one stage n

sad at another.. alamak..

wat have i done ehh?

or wat have i not done?...

shit.. it's driving me crazy..tat's y i hate to sit at home.. all dae..like todae..ehehe

mayb it's juz boredom... haaha..crap..me

looking forward for tmw!!..

my last paper..then go hm sleep...heh...

i need my holidae...haah... nah actualy... i'll b dead boring for the upcoming holidaes...

hmmm... it's late now...ermm i m looking .. thru my frenster frens....trying to DE-stress. hmm...

how things change...eh... some of them seem reali different...

wah got..bf...got gf..haha.....some of em' turn into some black metal crap..

haha..or even worse...MATrep..or minah2 or "rasta" fcuk up type..haha...

peace men..ehehee...ok la ..gtg..byee....

Somedae U will... find me caugth beneath a landslide.......

i m not okay...

2005-04-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Two down...one more...babe..eheheh

Hmm... i had my app mech test.. nah... it was ok....not tat difficult ar...i could ans every.. qns.. ar ...but dunno... correct a not...eheh... now got last one..meki..shit...ehehe

well i was listening to the radio.. when i heard news regarding.. wacko jacko..micheal jackson( correct the spelling a not?..)... heh..

well he's full of shit...haha.. go n molest small children...sick guy ehh..?..haha..

haiz...wat has the world come to...wat the fcuk man...

hmm oh ya ar... one more amazing story...heh.. a customer of a match make agency complaining to *CASE*... wat the f**k...eheh...

go n read the Newpaper... 1st page

tat guy is so old and botak... n he got a relatively attractive

wife... ... and complain the wife not good enuf... haiz...well mr botak men.. i dun tink there will b a refund ...haha.... hmm maybe cause u have no receipt...heh..crap...

well if he does gets a refund... i wanna try it...haha..once i m old la..hah..

mayb...mayb....

...heh..

erm watch

champion league football in the early morning...

hmm boring ar.. chelsea vs bayern.. my darling man u are out...

haiz..

ok enuf crap ...

gtg..

my applied mech... romance...

2005-04-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

My applied mech .... Romance

Hmm..well tdae.. hmm ..there isn't any sch... again..sit.. at hm... eat study... sleep...study... ...i dun noe y am i feeling so guilty... bout not studyin hard enuf??...

well i juz wanna .. a PASS.... yet i feel guilty... hmmm weird eh??.. rite a not??? eh? eh?.. ehehe.. crap...

n the worse part is tat i dun seem to get a hold of my..formulas.. n the exam is tmw!!.. damn...

well while writing tis i am listening.. to an indonesian song by

a band call Peter Pan(repeating mode..over n over again).. ya i hate their stooopid n lame name...

the song "mungkin nanti" or in english.. "MAYBE later..."... hmmm..

well i came to noe of tis song from a fren of mine. recently....

it has deep meaning... hmm.. make me feel emo2...remind me of sumone..sumone out there..

heh.. crap ar... ..eheh im not the emo2... type...man......eheh.. life goes on...rite?...heheh..i matured already ar..haha

ok jusri... stop whinning... n go study.....

ok gtg.........byeee...eehehe...

SIX FEET from the edge......

my applied mech... romance...

2005-04-11T09:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. it's mondae...last week of sch.. and last week of exam!! yes ar... well my next paper is on wed... applied mech.. hmm tis paper is propably.. the hardest ...heh... well i gotta study.......byeee....

SIX FEET from the edge

Great day.. heh...

2005-04-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

Wat a day... 1st.. i ended my losing streak... by winning.. 4-2..(half-time only...game abandon .. due to unforseen.. reason..heh).... wif mayon.. i scored again.. playin left mid... heh.. nvr play there b4.. i m impress wif the team performance..i mean... we dominated the game... heh..
When i got home... to my surprised .. my beloved mummy... ask me.. to change quickly... wahh... so shock ar!!.. i tot sumone died.. haha
She actualy.. wanted to buy.. me.. a new hp.. heh... after.. presuading her last nite... haha
LOVE U mummy... it's only a 7260...but it's still better than my 8250(shit...)...which i have been using since my ngage qd gt problem .....well tis is my 5th.. phone.. from motorolla ... to nokia 3200 to.. ngage qd...8250....and now 7260...eheh... on ya.. ppl... i change my number ...ar... later i msg u all la..ok?....heh...

lastly...wtf.... MAn UTD... they freak out.. again ..well i guess ... it's just wasn't meant to be.. come on united!!.. ok time to sleep...

hmm.. i seem to b talking so much about soccer. ar?...ehehe... well if u tink it's boring....let be... eheh.. i dun give a shit..eheh..peace.. i gtg..sleep..eheh

SIX Feet from the edge.......

Stop the rot....

2005-04-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

Wah i got BLOG ar...
ehehe... crap... ya.. i noe it's kinda lame... right... now then got blog...
BUT ar wat the fcuk.... eheheh... must thank MR faris... my blog creator... hmmm.. THANK U FARIS EH..... Just now i had a match.. fcuk... i lost 8-4.... to some mosque... team...i played for helmi's bro.. team...i noe i play like...haiz.. dun noe wat la... not happy despite scoring... 1 header... which is veRY Rare for me...i mean i rarely score wif a header....
I LOST 5 STRAIGHT.. GAME...
ALL TRASHING... TIME to stop the rot!!... haha..tmw got game wif mayon.in about 7 hrs time..... haha.. agst.. ex northbrooks ....wish me luck man...

SIX FEET from the edge.....